It was just not me here. Probably each one had a different start but around ten folks from my class declared their aspirations of getting the tag of beeing IITians behind their names too. And so 1 among us joined a famous couching institute for IIT JEE and so did the rest of us, and offcourse the aspiring 7'th grade pupil myself too. Since i was a good student at school always a pain in the neck to my teachers with my ever ending questions, a sweet pain though[:D], they directed my mom to put me in IIT track.With my initial excietment and ignorance 1'st few days were bed of roses. I liked the liberty we were given to ask anything under the skies and got explinations for that too. But as time rolled a little reality struck like a thunderbolt.I realised I had to put in more than what I was giving to it, I had to work harded and stick to books which i was nevr used to coming from a CBSE background. I realised i was not the best here unlike at school and I was neither toping in the exams as i used to do at school. I was never used to scoring less all my life, so it kind of shook the ground beneath me and i started hating the coaching center. Every time i felt low mom used to give me strength and used to plant me in the battle field. But somehow my like has already turned into dislike and the more i hated it the more i wanted to achieve it. Yet sumthing got clearly ingrained in my mind that IIT was not my cup of tea. So thats how some wonderful evenings of my school days were ruined in the dark rooms of my coaching center.
Finally with a good score in my boards i was out of the school as well as vizag. Dad got transfered to hyderabad so moved along with him. But IIT still haunted me. Hyderabad is supposed to be a hub to produce IITians. And not to mention about institutes like rammaiyah and krishna murthy's v study circle for which all the 10'th passouts and IIT aspirants would give the enterance exam to get in. And because of the crap competition i had to join in a coaching center to actually get into another coachin center [:O]....phew....!!And because of that i had to miss my farewell and join immidiately after my board exams. My summer was spent in classes and giving various exams for institutes that offered IIT JEE coaching. I was pretty sure that i wont be gettin into anything but i couldnt expect much with my rotten luck and i got into krishnamurthy [:(] well got into the newly established S.R.nagar branch. I still cant figure out if its a boon or a bane. At this point my hopes on IIT revived again after a good performance in the summer and wanted to give it a try so plunged into it again.
Here starts my another phase in the journey during my 11'th and 12'th which was full of rollercoaster ride. During this phase things were totally different. I will certainly give an acoount of my college life in another post.So with reloaded excitement and enthusiasm it kicked off well. Used to pay keen attention to all that was going on in the class and bent at completing the chapters from different books the same day. Initially i knew a very few people of my class though i almost spoke with every girl and gave them the impression of a chatterbox right the first day. It was all more like mind your business and spy on what the other person is studying and just get away. But as the time rolled and as a few tests were conducted things changed. Like all the elite folks who scored exceptionally well flocked together and we termed them aliens and never bothered to disturb them. And the rest who have stuff as well but dont really score as high as the rest teamed up and started working together.Stay backs after college timings, using library extensively was done initially.But as we got used to the college, staff and folks around us and when we were looking around for a break i guess i took quite a long one. Friendships started getting thick and so hanging out and going to each other's place and longer pani puri breaks ruined loads of study time. And when friendships were getting strong it is kind of obvious that we get into some or the other row. Spent ample of time in petty fights and stupid misunderstandings. Come what may all of us stuck to each other till the end. Or atleast thats what we promised each other. Each one of were keen to know what the other one studying and what books he or she was following. And everyday we promised to do some quality work at home after college but in vain. Yet none of us got tiered of planing a new study time table every day which seldome got executed. There were days when we got ignited by our lecturer's inspirational speeches and strained our eyes for a couple of hours together at a stretch, but alas nothing lasted too long :( . Days rolled too fast and we didnt realise that it was december and we just had 3 more months to hit IIT-JEE. Attendence could be counted on finger tips and we prefered staying at home and studying. But well it wasnt a bright idea again, so we strated alternating between college and home where ever we could study the best. And when feb approached we were forced to open our intermediate course which we never did all through the two years except once in 11'th before the boards. And so devoted ten days of feb was devoted to 11'th n 12'th and 15 days in march to write the boards. And after that all that we had was just IIT before us. All of us grew daam serious during that time and sacrificed net and cell totally.
Now the D day arrived. It was on april 8'th andi had to go to lallaguda railway degree college to give my JEE. Mom and dad escorted me to the center and i could see many more anxious parents with their children just as mine. In fact i was really amused by the sight of all the tensed parents who were trying to assure their children and give them confidence. Man cant they just leave them in silence before the exam seriously i couldnt take all that. So finally i got into my room and was waiting for the instructions. The question paper had a seal which i couldnt open untill the invigilator asked me to. Yet i was trying to peek into the paper with a little success. As soon as i opened the paper and just fliped through i felt like i was struck by a thunderbolt. I didnt imagine even in my wildest dreams that it could be so easy. As i was going further and attempting my paper i feareed of faring really well which i couldnt believe actually. I came out of the hall dumbstruck. Mom was eager to hear what i would say. She feared the shock over my face but releaved to hear that it was due to a pleasant reason. Had some icecreams and some home made food and headed back to write paper-2. Since paper-1 seemed easy i expected paper-2 to be a bit tough. But to my surprise even that was pretty easy and almost followed the footsteps on paper-1. I almost screamed seeing the paper i guess. It was kinda difficult to conceal my happiness on seeing the paper. Exam was a grand success, as far as i know i've done pretty well and i actually coudnt believe that. Later i learnt that almost all the folks have done as well as i did or may be better than me. But well never mind, i still had some hope and feared a heart attack if in case i hear that i cleared JEE. So here i sit awaiting my result. More later......
14 comments:
waiting for the continuation
These are the same kind of feelings every aspirant of IIT-JEE would normally come across
u have penned it down very well and kept it simple!!
All i can say is
"All The Very Best"
good luck!!!!!!!!
all the best.
I really like the way u have written it all down reminds me of my college days any ways keep the good work going u have a very good way of expressing ur feelings in words.
All the best for u future.
Hiiiiii ni'vedita' chaaaaaala baaaaaaaaga rasev!!antha chadivindi nee unlucky frend!!!
jus kiddin.... baaga raasev...missssss uuu
IIT SUCKS...actually da preparation n da exam..not after we make it thru...but this post rocks
true to da core.
good effort.
keep writing n keep rocking.
hey nivedita...
u really seem to be a wonderful writer... i reached ur blog through the ayn rand community where i read ur views....n u seem to be getting better n better...
yeah getting into IIT might seem tough, bt d life inside is nt much easier too, though relaxed!!!wen r d results, neways???
The feelings that u have expressed in this r true to the core... I too had somewhat similar feelings when i jumped onto this track...
But iit results have been declared long long back now even the classes r gonna start so i think its time for u to continue....
All the best and ur blog rocks
One JEE-Dreamer reads the blog of another JEE-Dreamer. Ofcourse my dreams have shattered long back and I'm not at all feeling bad about it. I know what happened with your dream too and I hope you would take it in the same way.
Skill takes you a way long ahead than the university. So just take this word from me. And I'm very sure, there is something more than mere B.Tech waiting for you after reading your blog.
All the best buddy.
So what happened next?
Its real what you wrote...it is the same feeling with me,..when I prepared for my JEE ... You have expressed it very well..Would like to read more of it...
Regards
IIT really sucks........i m also one among the millions who gave a shot to iit with two years of fcukin hardwork n finally betrayed by destiny....
its really excellent please continue this work i really love it.
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